We Dance For Silence

Like a snake sheds his skin so go we, those of us who bravely venture on
Filled with heightened senses as vigilantly, we quietly roam till dawn.
Exposed our emotions on our shoulders perched like the raven black,
Hearing whispers, feeling stares, why we grow eyes high upon our back.
Lost amongst the others, those who gather, but wonder on without a face
Shivering, I cover myself up with pure thoughts of another softer place.
No longer shielded by the imaginary walls or blinds that shut us out
Can’t the others try and understand what our bruised inner-self is about?
Fears that one does not see and childlike memories that hide so deep
Ignoring innocent faces lost in a crowd, who notices when they weep?
Tissue, skin, clothing, nor dusk can hide or take away our veil of scars
For we dance for silence, protect our solace, as we hide behind our bars.
When little we accepted the insanity that was necessary for us to abide
Like insects caught in a spider web, many tried to scamper off and hide.
A tough batch of us not easily understood for one must slog this path,
Stronger than steel, a wise old group, who now belong to a kindred caste.
A few didn’t make it as hearts break those spirits left this earth in pain
Those that perpetuated the cycle will mourn their passing with shame.
Breaking cycles and ending  suffering  with gifts of faith, love, and joy
For all God’s children deserve to be happy, yes, every little girl and boy.
 By Joni 10/16/19

Written for all those who protect their inner-child by being a child of God and knowing he will never forsake us!


72 thoughts on “We Dance For Silence

    1. Thank you. I feel I have a responsibility to let other children who are currently or were raised in an addictive family know that there is a way out of the cycle. Thanks for your comment. It is painful but necessary to talk about. Love ❤️ Joni

      1. You are definitely not, my new friend. There are millions of us out there. I am going to check out your site. Thank you for reading and I was blessed to have God beside me during the time I was especially very young. He is still with me and I feel so fortunate. Blessings to you and thank you so much for reading and commenting. Joni

    1. I had to go back and read it myself as I forgot what it was about. Wow I can understand why I wrote it and the fact that it made you cry means as a poet (even though I have wondered how hard it must be for you to read my words) I have done my job. People like to read uplifting and poems filled with love and happiness and all things wonderful but many of us grew up in a different world. I literally worried about surviving almost every day. Afraid of being killed in my sleep or worse. People who have dealt with childhoods that were so frightening they were afraid to go to sleep at night need to have poems to read and to understand they are not alone. It is also great to know that one can change and be productive and have a normal life, or pretty close to normal. My sorrow comes at times unexpected and then the tears run like a river down my face. So I still cry for that little girl but I don’t feel sorry for myself as I believe that all things happened for a reason and God was always right by my side to hold me up and he still is right there. Thank you for reading my work dear Anna and I hope when you do and it makes you cry that as with me there are some tears of joy that I survived and have made a difference in the world even if it is in some little way. You have made a big difference and have shined like a star to have accomplished what you have and your volunteer work was such a blessing I know, every day you went to work. Sending love and always prayers your way my dear friend. xoxoxo

      1. That pain always lives on deep inside of us.. What we absorbed was never fair.. its so good to release it in tears, its the way your soul stays soft and close to God..hugs and love dear and beautiful friend <3

      2. Oh thank you. No there is never anything fair about abuse of children. I hope that you are doing well. It is so nice to hear from you. I am sending you so much love, hugs and prayers for blessings. We can never have too many. Love you ❤️🤗🦋Joni

      3. I am okay I do struggle bodily and its due to still looking to family at times.. I do not know but when I read your post it became clearer to me.. My health is under siege at the moment but I will keep fighting on.. I love you too Joni.. you really inspire me.. <3

      4. I am so sorry to hear this. I just prayed for you, and for the Lord to help you to feel better. Of course I can’t tell you what to do but I can’t be around my sisters. They are abusive and have chosen to travel the same path rather than to try and have a normal life. It is hardest for me to not be around my little sister, but she acts just like my mom when she use to get drunk. I can’t do it and I will not let them drag me down. The best thing I can do is faithfully pray for them. Please take good care of yourself. I love you and you are in my prayers. xoxoxoxoxo

      5. Yes my sister is really unwell too Joni. It’s taking me a long time to see this just been on the phone to her son about it all. Some people reject love, it sad but it is outside our power. Maybe we need then to.let go. You have and that is good. Hugs and ❤ love prayers gratefully accepted.

  1. Life is seldom all sweetness and light, is it, Joni? It is from the pain and bitter memories that understanding and healing can occur and the journey, while painful is at the same time, necessary and important. Hugs to you and your family. Stay well. Allan

    1. You are so right Allan. I am very blessed and grateful for my rich life. I agree that with pain comes growth and certainly healing. I appreciate your reading and supporting my work. Thank you for the hugs and more coming right back at you and your family. Hugs, Joni

    1. Thank you so much Tim for this kind comment that is four days old. I am sorry I don’t know what happened that it ended up in pending comments. Thank you so very much and I hope that everyone is doing well on the Ranch. Love and hugs my friends xoxoxoxo Joni

      1. Awww..! I’m so happy to see you lovely comment my dear doll..! I’m speechless..! Thanks a million..! Much love..!🤗💖

      2. My pleasure. Your stories are beautiful with lovely pictures. I enjoyed them and look forward to reading more. Love ❤️ Joni

      3. Wowww!! I’m flattered by your words..! I think I never going to wake up..!😄☺️ I’m so happy to loved my stories..! Thanks a million..! Sure! Will post soon..!🤗💖💖

      4. Woww..! Your blessings are very important my dear friend..! It’s make me to grow very fast..! Love and hugs..!🤗💖

    1. Thank you so much my friend. I appreciate your very kind words. Great line by the way – very poetic.

      “The secrets of silence reveal the mysteries of human energy.”

      🤗❤️😘🌺☕️☕️☕️Sending hugs, love and blessings. Joni

  2. This one got to me, Joni. All your poetry touches my heart, my soul, your gift speaks to many of us, thank you for sharing what it is like. I hope you are doing well, my friend, take good care and keep writing!!! 🥰🤗❤

    1. Tiffany thank you so much for reading. I am so glad that you read me and that you find that my poetry speaks to you, that means so much and touches my heart. I am doing ok my friend and I will definitely keep writing. I am sending you my love and appreciation. xoxoxoxo Joni

  3. Joni, I read and reread this. And reread again.
    “Like a snake sheds his skin so go we, those of us who bravely venture on
    Filled with heightened senses as vigilantly, we quietly roam till dawn.”

    This entire poem is so beautifully written. I love the form and gentle rhyme you have used, which mirrors the powerful message but beautiful and gentle way you’ve delivered it. We carry the weight of our lives in our souls and hearts and bones and eyes. But as you so beautifully write, it makes us strong and it connects us too.

    “Stronger than steel, a wise old group, who now belong to a kindred caste.”

    We recognise and see each other.

    You’re a magnificent writer Joni. Sending you flowers 💐🌺🌷🌻🌼🌷🌺🥀🌹

    1. Thank you so much Rachel. Your words touch me so deeply and mean so much. Thank you for sharing such kindness with me Rachel. Yes, everything you said is true. We are indeed a strong group. So glad to be able to share that part of myself with you, my friend, through our writing.

      By the way your piece on MasticadoresUSA was exceptionally written. So lovely every word. I was so happy to see you there. Love and flowers are appreciated and filling the house with sweet smells.
      I hope to read you again soon. Love ❤️ Joni

  4. 💖 Joni 💖
    This my dear is so powerful and well spoken in poetry exposing our shedding or our pain and persona and compassion for those who never did make it out…… alive.
    This is my favorite piece of yours or one of them❣️
    Soooo good my friend.. love it! 💖❣️❣️

    1. Thank you so much Cindy, I am so glad you got the poem and understood how deep its meaning goes. I will mark this as one to consider including when I write a book of poetry myself. So glad you liked it my friend who is not so far away. You are sweet to read so many of my poems, you could probably stay busy all day just reading your comments, I don’t know how you do it. You are a very energetic blogger just like you were saying, it does take a lot of time. I am already praying that CA weather will change and that there will be more soft showers and no fires this year. Love you sweetie, Joni

      1. It is my pleasure… profound and yes, do consider it for your book. It’s superb. I enjoy your work in art and wisdom as you embody truth and knowingness. Well, it is tricky and everyday I think I’ll do better and am still trying to figure it all out. Oh my yes, we do need some darn showers.. thanks for the prayers my dear. xo love you,

      2. You are so sweet Cindy, honestly you spread love and sunshine whenever you post and the same thing with your loving comments. I feel so blessed to have you as my friend. God certainly blessed me there. Thank you my friend, love you bundles, Joni – Yes I don’t want CA to have to deal with fires this year, last year was so hard on everybody. Love you Cindy xoxoxox Joni

      3. You are the best friend a girl could have. Thanks so much and am blessed to have you in my camp, my circle, my life and sooooo happy you feel the same about me.. Gosh… I know it’s sooo scary💖🙏🙏🙏🙏🥰

    1. Thank you for this very kind comment and the reblog. I am so glad you thought it was powerful. Thank you also so much for reading. 🤗❤️ Joni

    1. That was very kind of Tim and thank you so much for reading and I am so glad you enjoyed the piece. It is a blessing to have people read my work. Thank you. ❤️ Joni

  5. I’ve never read this one, Joni. I am so blessed that it showed up in my reader today. Your verse is painful, true, and beautifully full of hope and love. Resonates deeply with me, as I know you know. Sending love and hugs. xoxoxo

    1. I am sorry that it resonates but that is why I originally started my blog Jeff. There are a lot of us out there with varying degrees of the lack of parental care or even horrible abuse. We can get past it but it somehow is so validating to know that others understand.
      Thank you for reading Jeff I certainly enjoy your beautiful work. Sending you big hugs and lots of love ❤️

      1. It’s completely okay, thank you, Joni. I understand, and we are all so happy that you did start you blog. Your work is very important and loved by all of us. Shared understanding is super important. I completely agree. Thank you for the love and hugs, my dear friend. ❤️

  6. Beautiful poem and beautiful picture. Yes, like an insect caught in a web. Life does feel like that sometimes. And we struggle in vain. LOL. Wish 2022 is a beautiful tiger year for us that we feel empowered, free, loved, and appreciated.

    1. Oh thank you, that sounds wonderful. Yes sometimes life can feel like that but let’s hope that all is wonderful this year. That does sound lovely perhaps we will have a very special year. Big hugs and love to you and your family. ❤️🤗🦋 Joni

  7. Giving a voice to this gives others permission to feel the truth too and not be forced to deny it as is so often the case in a society where such pain is so often either repressed or hidden.. Lovely to read this today Joni..

    1. Thank you so much for reading. Yes it is often pushed underneath the rug but young people as we know will suffer abuse. It is something unfortunately that is done only too often with families that are isolated or even in plain sight. People need to know the signs. It is something that shouldn’t be kept in silence. Thank you for reading my friend. Sending big hugs 🤗 love Joni

      1. You are very welcome dear Joni. We both enjoy your poetry so much and can really feel the power and the emotion you put in every word, perfectly selected and precisely placed. Our love to you both and a beautiful day to you!

      2. Thank you both so very much Francis. I do appreciate you both reading and your very thoughtful and supportive comments. Please give Gül a great big hug 🤗 for me. My love to you both. ❤️🦋🥰

  8. So many lovely comments, Joni. Let me add one from my side too. Your words are not only powerful or hopeful, they deliver a message of resilience, a human’s need to bounce back and move on. Suffering cannot hold one back, it’s the greatest sin to dwell in the past, and forsake the present and future. I hope many hear this message and feel that they don’t walk this long road alone. 🙂

    1. Oh thank you so much Terveen. I do so appreciate your very thoughtful comment. I also appreciate that people are understanding the message. What you said touched me dearly because you are so right. Everyone has difficulties in their lives. I felt extra blessed that I had my faith but I also had resources with a great job that afforded me therapy when I was in my early twenties. I wanted to make sure the cycle was not repeated with my daughter. My daughter had a totally different life than I did. We are close and I am so grateful that I was able to give back in many ways over my career and through volunteering. I agree that dwelling in the past and not moving forward we are complacent and repeat the cycle all over again.

      I too hope people hear the story and know they are not alone. Thanks again Terveen. Big hugs 🤗 Joni

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