Sweat oozed from my pores as I ran toward the barnSand spurs stung the bottoms of my fleeing feetAs I sprinted wildly toward Margie's southern farmI prayed my drunk daddy would do me no harm In the woods, I had played with dollies and climbed treesThe big three, one with a treehouse I had visited … Continue reading Climbing Trees
Category: ACOA Behavior
Making Eggs
Tied up, beat up, washcloth stuffed into her bruised mouthTwo legs and two arms tied to bedposts in a messy fashionMuffled screams came from their room quite a frightful sightHow was I to tell my mom a normal, love you, and good night Why didn’t he just shut the door and save me from this … Continue reading Making Eggs
We Dance For Silence
Like a snake sheds his skin so go we, those of us who bravely venture onFilled with heightened senses as vigilantly, we quietly roam till dawn. Exposed our emotions on our shoulders perched like the raven black,Hearing whispers, feeling stares, why we grow eyes high upon our back. Lost amongst the others, those who gather, but wonder … Continue reading We Dance For Silence
Up-Side-Down World
Confusion, the perplexing reality which made no sense to me, Living trapped within its walls was not the place for youth to be. Vomiting, drinking, peeing in the closet, on shoes, my only pair, My mom running through the neighborhood naked in the night, News in the paper, now at school, where judging eyes would … Continue reading Up-Side-Down World
Twisted Shelter
Darkness is a mistress dressed in deep purples, blues and black, Thickened with fog, her cloak is tainted with the blood of innocents. She robs them of their voices as safety has surrendered all, To her steel, cold claws that cut and tear away all sense of self, Virtue and compassion now exist in the … Continue reading Twisted Shelter
My Forgiven Mistake
Eyes that once dreamed, now clouded by my twenty-year sentence, Walls so tightened, my viscera was slowly squeezed with foulness out, My skin weakened, but still supported by my falsely displayed armor. Void of all emotion, passion, or even a hint of a jagged seam united, As expected, a lifeless form, shuffled forward as foreseen … Continue reading My Forgiven Mistake
No Real Danger
Panic seizes me like a panther stalks its prey for the kill, Unbiased to the weakness it seeks in the frailness, Of the wavering, unstable victim, as it waits, acutely surveying, Then moving silently, a short rush, a bite to the neck and it's quelled! Like a dark shadow in an alley, poorly lit with … Continue reading No Real Danger
It’s Me, The Clown
If you’re a child of an alcoholic, do not be quiet,don’t accept the blame, shame and don’t be silent. Yell out to your friends, and tell the world around,If your one of the three personalities, I’d be the clown! Read, share yourself, don’t suffer alone in some dark place,It’s not your disease or dysfunction, and … Continue reading It’s Me, The Clown
A Lonely Child
Floating fools with blackened brows of dreaded fear,As cubes of wax block out the words they do not hear, Pupils shattered cut with glasses from a broken show,Vision gone, lights always out, she wonders where to go. Yellow nose of pollination we wonder, why, do you make,Beauty for a thousand kings but nothing for our … Continue reading A Lonely Child
Co-Dependency – What Say I
One way for Adult Children of Alcoholics (ACoA) to find self-love is to finally free yourself of co-dependent behaviors. This is not as easy as it sounds. I struggled with this until I was almost forty. I believe we have learned and acquired these unhealthy traits by years of living with alcoholics or other types of dysfunctional … Continue reading Co-Dependency – What Say I
