Oh God, my enemy’s who hurt my heart I must love, I cling to your teachings and the affection you sent With your beloved son Jesus who now reigns above. In my life, I am never worthy of your love, for I’m bent. The sinful thing that I am, born this way, and yet you … Continue reading Humble Myself
Category: Guilt
SWEETER THAN THE LARK’S SONG
White perfection like cirrus clouds on a sweltering southern mid-afternoon, Lay the cotton blanket of white whispers speaking hauntingly and softly. My eyes gazing on a snowy speckled pattern, as I could hear melodic singing. Melancholy voices, expressions shared while talking of their joint sorrows, Bended aching backs and thin arms carrying heavy sacks of the … Continue reading SWEETER THAN THE LARK’S SONG
Up-Side-Down World
Confusion, the perplexing reality which made no sense to me, Living trapped within its walls was not the place for youth to be. Vomiting, drinking, peeing in the closet, on shoes, my only pair, My mom running through the neighborhood naked in the night, News in the paper, now at school, where judging eyes would … Continue reading Up-Side-Down World
Deceitfulness
Pierced with sharp objects the skin grows tight, Disillusionment fraught with dishonesty stings, As those you love, with one swipe cut at your wings! Your adversary hides like the spider in a new web, Jealousy, cruelty and embitterment take a slice, Your heart is now fully aware of their shallow device. Your tissue toughens to … Continue reading Deceitfulness
THE LIE
A thing that grows and stings the soul, Of the ears in which it lands.Pain ruptured wound now reopened, Doubt begins to wonder once again.How does it so easily slide right off, The tip of that self-righteous tongue!Once verbalized it floats about in space, You can't deny or ignore its strength, It tugs and breaks … Continue reading THE LIE
My Wrath
Lips pucker and brows wrinkle as he stares.Anger burrows in deep erasing his kind features.Borne is this unsummoned yet familiar creature,From the inferno of my own unrestrained wrath.Stinging remarks racing from my impertinent gateway,Chilling his heart and granting birth to my sin and guilt. by Joni 6/19
Taken Down A Notch or Two
A couple of days ago I was taken down a notch or two. It was a blessing for me. I can’t spare too many inches as I am already only five foot two. However, I find myself a bit shorter today. I realized that I had judged someone a bit harshly who I felt had … Continue reading Taken Down A Notch or Two
Always God’s Child
I pray that when I’m out and about, that you will see, God’s wonderful Love and mercy shine through me. Although I am a sinful creature and I can surely stray, It's through his loving grace that I am blessed this day. Without any condition, my exalted Lord does so love, All his children who … Continue reading Always God’s Child
It’s Me, The Clown
If you’re a child of an alcoholic, do not be quiet,don’t accept the blame, shame and don’t be silent. Yell out to your friends, and tell the world around,If your one of the three personalities, I’d be the clown! Read, share yourself, don’t suffer alone in some dark place,It’s not your disease or dysfunction, and … Continue reading It’s Me, The Clown
Co-Dependency – What Say I
One way for Adult Children of Alcoholics (ACoA) to find self-love is to finally free yourself of co-dependent behaviors. This is not as easy as it sounds. I struggled with this until I was almost forty. I believe we have learned and acquired these unhealthy traits by years of living with alcoholics or other types of dysfunctional … Continue reading Co-Dependency – What Say I
