Terrifying was the firm declaration of her voice
Nonexistent was empathy in her vivid testimony.
I dreamed of you again, Joni, your waist length hair
Framing your petite face floating in the chilly waters
Of your bath, a slight layer of water visible above
Your lifeless body as your essence was striving to
Float, as the weight of your locks, took you faintly under.
So serene the vision of your naked body emerging
Worries vanishing like the half bar of floating soap
Skimming along the now still surface of the water.
My mother's reiteration of this account of her dream
Of my premature death during my youthful years.
by Joni Caggiano
8 thoughts on “To Float Out of Existence”
Wow! What a horrific and sadistic thing to tell your child. Thank God her dream didn’t become a reality! Thank you for sharing.
Thank you for commenting. She was obviously very ill and the chronic alcoholism didn’t help the situation. I too am glad her dream did not happen that wasn’t in God’s plan. Love 💕 Joni
Wow, some things are truly better off unsaid. I thank God for the work He has done in and through you… that we can have wisdom to open our mouths in kindness, or not at all. Love to you Joni.
Thank You Sheryl your kind words are always appreciated. Your so thoughtful. Love to you too my friend. Joni
I am sorry you had to hear such vile words out of your own mother’s mouth. I am so thankful you are alive & living a good life, as you deserve
Thank you my dear friend Janette. Love ❤️ you bunches. Joni
How horrifying that your mother would subject you to such a vision! Oh, Joni. The things you survived. And yet here you stand: a testament to endurance, a voice for truth. I am honored to be your friend. Love, A. <3 <3 <3
I never did understand why she felt the need to talk of this repeated dream of hers over and over. It did frighten me as a child. I appreciate your kindness Anna and thank you for your sweet words. I feel the same way about you as well. Sending love, hugs and prayers. ❤️Joni.