Up-Side-Down World

Confusion, the perplexing reality which made no sense to me,
Living trapped within its walls was not the place for youth to be.
Vomiting, drinking, peeing in the closet, on shoes, my only pair,
My mom running through the neighborhood naked in the night,
News in the paper, now at school, where judging eyes would stare.
Confusion, the perplexing reality which made no sense to me,
Living within this up-side-down world was not the place to be.
Beaten by my dad with bare bottoms rubbed slowly after every blow,
Not for being bad we were told, but so this would make us right,
This procedure was not quick but was methodical and very slow.
Confusion, and the perplexing reality which made no sense to me,
Forced roles and fake faces we presented in this horrid place to be.
Shotgun firing in the house in the middle of the dark and crazy night,
New holes in the ceiling, police have come again, anonymous tips,
From our neighbors, and now a police van takes my mom out of sight.
Confusion, and the perplexing reality which made no sense to me,
Enclosed within this hellish hall, called home, is where we had to be.
Sexually molested, by lack of protection on occasion, or lack of care,
Where we shouldn't have been, but they knew no one would worry,
God was my protector, my hope, as we lived within this fearsome lair.
Confusion, and the perplexing reality which made no sense to me,
Hiding inside the walls, tree trunks, or in my imagination, I will be.
Abuse, neglect, I ate from trash cans instead of the scary dinner table,
Skinny, anemic the doctors often threatened a blood transfusion,
My food went in my panties, what did the doc think, our family stable?
Confusion, and the perplexing reality which made no sense to me,
So the woods and inside the couch's fabric, there I was until set free!

by JKC 8/22/19

(Thankful for resources which are available to help others to help beat this cycle of addiction and abuse for innocent children born into these situations.)

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